During my schooling, I acquired a fine sense of calmness and utmost diligence. I was raised to comform to school's rules and parents' advice.
After graduating and starting to adopt a professional working life, I realize how little I understand about myself. It's a shame.
Working, learning, recognizing, struggling, reflecting are the 5 key elements of my life so far. This combo 5 has pushed me beyond adolescent boundaries and opened my eyes to broader angles. But when things become more complex and continuously varied, I feel an urge to take risk to JUST DO IT.
However, ironically, when I realize how much I thirst for diversified experience, I am also bounded by basic life bonds of responsbility - old aged parents, financial self sufficiency, future family plan,...
This has become an intrinsic life paradox and it has always winned at bothering me. I feel torn between two courses of action and still struggle to figure out the best way possible.
"A touch of madness" is what I want for now, not entirely because of any pursue of greatness like Aristotle said, but mostly because of my relentless want to follow my heart.
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